HAHAHAHHAHA Totally freaking out about the pianist coming to rehearse her Lizst piano concerto with my orchestra! The day I really wish I wasn’t principal cellist…we gon get slapped tomorrow!

I have to let it out. I miss my dog. Life isn’t going to be the same.

I’m not that confident in myself. I walk around looking at the ground. People say that I always look happy, I guess I am. I just don’t want to be around the same people anymore, I want to go out and explore the world. I want to see new people and not feel like they already have a preconceived thought that I’m some music nerd or weird runner. I just want to go to a new place and meet new people, and have a fresh start. Let’s see how college goes.

I didn’t think I could get so attached to these people…it’s going to be the hardest thing leaving them when I graduate. We all knew each other so well, but we didn’t need to talk, just run and know we work for the guy or girl next to you. It’s going to be hard leaving. 

My mom always takes care of me, but when she’s sick, I feel like I’m useless. She’s sick and I don’t know what to do. I just try to make her feel better, but she knows that I can’t do anything and she’s fine with that. I try to help her, but it’s hard because she knows so much more than I do. I just want to take the sickness from her and put it on me because I know I can handle it. It’s hard.

I was mad, and I said “Hi” to my mom when she got home. She automatically knew that I wasn’t in the greatest mood by the way I said hello. Only her. Shes amazing.

That awkward moment when you’re principal cellist, but not…

If people could understand what happens to me when I play music, they would never tell me that I’m doing something stupid.  But I don’t care that they’re ignorant; I’m determined to show others how I feel for music. 

scherzoso:

cadaverous-mob:

50% practice

30% skill

20% feelings of inadequacy

I’m feeling like its more 50-30-100
yes i can maths 

(via musicandloveandlife)