HAHAHAHHAHA Totally freaking out about the pianist coming to rehearse her Lizst piano concerto with my orchestra! The day I really wish I wasn’t principal cellist…we gon get slapped tomorrow!

Mmmmeeeeeehhhh I don’t want to do school anymore! I guess we’ll just be friends and see we’re it Le goes. Hahahaha I have such a sad life with music!

I’m not that confident in myself. I walk around looking at the ground. People say that I always look happy, I guess I am. I just don’t want to be around the same people anymore, I want to go out and explore the world. I want to see new people and not feel like they already have a preconceived thought that I’m some music nerd or weird runner. I just want to go to a new place and meet new people, and have a fresh start. Let’s see how college goes.

Definitely crapped that audition…

That awkward moment when you’re principal cellist, but not…

If people could understand what happens to me when I play music, they would never tell me that I’m doing something stupid.  But I don’t care that they’re ignorant; I’m determined to show others how I feel for music. 

scherzoso:

cadaverous-mob:

50% practice

30% skill

20% feelings of inadequacy

I’m feeling like its more 50-30-100
yes i can maths 

(via musicandloveandlife)

Merrrr. All of them. Next time I’m just go close my eyes and make them follow me while I play. I’ll just let everything thing flow and I’ll sound better.

The thought of playing elegie for the first time with my orchestra makes my heart race. I will never be mentally ready.